Losing weight...

Back in 2010 I had lost about 50 pounds and I was feeling incredible.  It was amazing to purchase Medium and Large shirts and be in a size 34 waist.  I guess I am mentally challenged and find it virtually impossible to keep the weight off.  I made a decision last night that I would attempt to lose the weight again.  In the past I found success in writing everything down that I ate.  That even includes the creamer in my coffee.

I hear that yo-yo dieting is very bad for your heart.  I have heart disease in my family and know the impacts of poor eating and the health ramifications it does to your body over time.  What makes me not think of those things when I'm shoving a donut in my face???

When the show the biggest loser came on the air this season they had a theme of "no excuses".  While I was thinking about starting my weight loss journey again I thought about no excuses and I kept finishes my sentences in my head with that I can't lose weight because of this or that!  I have an excuse for everything.

My mom struggles with her weight every day.  I can understand her pain and her sadness when she falls off the wagon.  My issue is that when I was a kid I was not overweight.  I was a normal kid.  Not too fat and not too skinny.  As an adult working from home in a sedentary lifestyle it's a struggle to get up and get moving.  I sit in front of a computer for 10 hours a day with my kitchen refrigerator calling my name every minute of each hour.  I have food on my mind all day long.

So, what is it that is going to make me succeed this time?  Is it this blog?  Is it keeping in my mind that I need to be there for my kids?  Is it my wife, who has now lost over 100 pounds and is so motivated and beautiful and happy?  Is it my nephew that is going to start this journey with me?  I think it's all of the above.

When I lost all the weight in 2010 I said that I would never go back to being fat, so I gave away or threw out all of my fat clothes.  Well what the hell!!!!!  Now that I am fat again I have only a couple of shirts and shorts that fit me!!  Working from home I'm in lounge clothes all day.  I pray I don't have to go into the office because my dress clothes don't fit. 

I find myself so much more attractive when looking in the mirror when I am skinny.  My face get so round when I'm fat.  I hate it!

Today is the day!  April 26, 2012.  I currently weight 241 pounds and hope to be under 200 by August 25th.  That's just 10 pounds a month I think I can do it.  I've done it before.  I usually don't eliminate carbs all together or go on any of these fad diets.  I know they don't work.  Just good old eating healthy and exercising has worked for me in the past and I will try that again.  I think this time though my wife is motivated and we will work together.  She tends not to bring junk food into the house, but my main issue is portion control.

I don't drink soda.  I drink a lot of water.  My main issue is that if it's in the house it's mine.  I will admit it, I'm a closet eater.  I like to eat when I am stressed and alone.  Since I work from home I am alone for the majority of the day.  Even the dog doesn't come downstairs to say hello!! 

I love to ride my bike and walk.  I have flat feet so it's very hard for me to run long distances.  Is that an excuse that I just wrote?  Holy crap, it is!  Back in 2010 I struggled, but I didn't use having flat feet as an excuse.  I was able to run 10 miles and I felt fantastic!!  Maybe my excuse is that I don't want to go out and buy $100 sneakers.

I can't believe that I am spilling out my whole life right here in these words on this blog.  Maybe it's time to stop hiding and it's time to start moving and feeling alive again.  Now the big question is do I post the link to my blog on my facebook page or do I keep it a secret for now?  Only time will tell.  I'm still learning about how to format this blog so we shall see.

If you are struggling with your weight maybe my story will help you get motivated.